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I Sure Do Hope To Be Making My Presence Known Again

I am so sorry about the last few weeks. I’ve been gone from chat entirely, I haven’t been emailing anyone, I haven’t written nary a word… I’ve barely been online at all.

Some of it was Rudy going back into the hospital for almost a week again. That always freaks me out. And there is also something of a possible legal thing hanging over my head like the sword of Damocles. I’ll never actually know if I am going to be sued until they decide they are going to sue me… if they don’t do a thing, the uncertainty will always be there and I will just plain never know if the shoe is going to fall. If they do do a thing, then of course, our lives are ruined.

Physically, we think I may have fibromyalgia which would possibly explain a lot of the extra total body pain I’ve been having. It’s been building up for over a year and now it’s really bad. It used to b e just my back that made it hard to get out of bed in the morning. Now it;s everything that makes it physically hard to get out of bed every day.

My depression is as bad as ever. Worse, what with everything I have been talking about.

Life has always sucked. From the sexual abuse at the hands of my father when I was a child, to this right now and almost unimaginable stuff in between. But right now, my life just blows.

Where I have Been At

I have been extremely clinically depressed this past week and some. I wish more of you read this blog than the three of you who do… like the people that I regularly chat with so they would know that I am not just dissolved into the aether, but I am simply… having problems.

I will be back, of course. I simply am dealing with possible legal problems and the depression that comes with that; clinical  depression, and the depression that comes with that 🙂 ; physical illness, and the depression that comes with that; etc. There is more, I just can’t deal with typing it all out.

I just wish I didn’t always feel that I could just hide in a box for all eternity.

Take care y’all. I be back soon.

I Am Getting There (An Elder Scrolls Post)

This picture is smaller than full size (full size is 640×480) but I wanted it to be here without filling up a full screen for people who don’t use huge resolutions on their monitor. Mine is 1280×1024 and a lot of people have bigger, but a lot of people have smaller so I smooshed it down for you people. Because I love you.

Anyway, this is Frex, my Redguard character for ES: Arena. I’m in the Labyrinthian dungeon going for the 2nd piece of the Staff of Chaos, trying to kick Jagar Tharn’s ass and save the Emperor (and, thus, the Empire).

I had 7 of the 8 pieces a few years back and then stopped playing in my own fucked up way. Not this time. Not this time, Jagar Tharn.

(Frex leaves the room to go put her armor back on and from the back room comes a short scream, then muffled sounds as she is swallowed whole and digested alive by a snake)

Anne

When I Am Stressed, I REALLY Play Video Games

and with Rudy in the Hospital again, I am REALLY stressed out. So I have been playing Arena again, by Bethesda Softworks. You know, the guys who did Morrowind and Oblivion. Yeah, those guys. Anyway, I’ve played it a million times, and once I ALMOST beat it, but then quit pl;aying for some reason. But this time, THIS time, I am going to beat Jagar Tharn fair and square!!