Well, Rudy Is Healthier Tonight

Which is good. Last night he was very sick, and he spent most of the day trying not to puke. That’s not a good way to go through life. So today he’s been better, but not great. Which is good, but not “great”.

And today Rudy confided to me that he is very scared about the house we are buying. Which serves to scare me even MORE, and I was already worried to death about this whole thing. So, okay!

But such is life.

Anne

Again I Am Losing My Mind With Fear And Worry

Last Friday, Rudy got out of the hospital. He’d been in since that Monday before. Then, on Monday evening, we took him to the E.R. because he was full of fluids. When there, they stuck him with I.V. Lasix and we got out a liter and a half- he could breathe again. That was good.

Wednesday night, 3 a.m., I had to call 911 and get him to the hospital because he was so full of fluids he could not breathe- he was wheezing, coughing… couldn’t talk, totally out of breath. So this morning I got him back from the E.R.

I don’t know what’s going to happen, he doesn’t know what’s happening and he’s feeling worse, and the docs aren’t talking to each other to stay on the same page… so we don’t know what’s happening.

Which is bad because we are BUYING A HOUSE. And we are going to use our SSN disability to pay for the house. Which, if i LOSE my disability (a possibility- in 2 more years I get re-evalled) could make it tough to make payments.

Of courser, what could make it even HARDER to make payments is if, God forbid, Rudy does the unthinkable and DIES. Because then I would be dealing with the loss of my husband, the loss of the house (since he makes more money than I do)…

Argh. It’s just a horrible life.

Which is marginally better than no life 🙂

Anne

Well, Rudy Should Get Out Of The Hospital On Thursday

On Sunday, we started him on 2 two meds.  They made him feel kinda icky, but we went with it. On Monday, he felt worse, but we still stuck with it. But I hadn’t realised entirely how badly he was being fucked up. He hadn’t really urinated much at all during the time on Sunday when he took his meds, and on Monday when he started taking all his potassium tablets. He is always chronically low on potassium. But he started feeling worse and worse, then at 10 PM I took him to the ER because he was RAPIDLY going downhill.

Some of the numbers I give you will mean nothing, and that’s okay. You don’t need to know anything but what parts are bad, etc. Like, you wouldn’t need to know how FAST 25 MPH is, if you know that 26 MPH is over that speed limit.

 Anyways, when we got him to the ER, he was failing fast. They checked many vitals, including some important chemicals in the blood, like potassium. Now, getting a number above 5 in your potassium is bad- that’s high. And if it stays high, or gets higher, you can die. If you get a number that’s a high 6.X, then you are usually unconscious. Higher than that, you get closer to the “should be dead” category.

Rudy’s potassium was 9.6. They were AMAZED that not only was he ALIVE but that he was concious and lucid.

Well, Wednesday night, he’s still alive, and they are working on getting him stable with his meds so that HOPEFULLY he can come home tomorrow or the day after.

I don’t know what to do, because the world only has to look at him sideways before he plunges into the “should be dead” zone.

Anne

Oh And.

My Win2k install (I have several valid Win2k disks) had become Bloated and Ill, so I decided to install WinXP on my main machine. It took 2 days and innumerable reinstalls because it kept Not Working.

But finally, finally, it works. And you know what? Weird- but WinXP runs better than Win2k 🙂

Anne

“Day Break” Online

I found out that ABC had, in fact, been showing Day Break online, every Monday, so that we could watch what is happening. And, using that peculiar internet technique of “Mind Beaming” the episodes directly into my brain, I have been watching. Fascinating stuff. Love it.

Oh, and I’ve been writing again. So my stuff should be online soonest! : )

Anne