Well, Life Has Been Just Shit

since my last post, and for me to just sum it up like that with all that’s happened in my life-

Well, fuck.

Rudy’s still in the hospital, I’m spending 99% of my time with him there and trying to keep my life together the rest of the time. Not easy. Kids are starting school and I’m trying not to lose my mind.

Rudy’s not doing good. We spent a lot of time one day with him crying and talking about how hard it is for him to fight to stay alive, and that I have to realize that one day soon he’s going to have to stop fighting.

He keeps making me promise I won’t do anything horrible to myself after, when he can’t fight any more.

Anyway, he might have to stay in a nursing home after this, we don’t know. We just don’t know.

I just don’t know.

Anyway, that’s where I have been all this time, everyone. I still want to talk with people in various chatting programs- just haven’t been around, or haven’t had the energy to talk when I am around.

Miss you all.