I Don’t Really Want To Be Depressed And Crazy

But I think I am going crazy. I have been able to feel my mind unwinding for the last 2 years- ever since Rudy’s health really started Going South (old ‘Nam term, still useful). I honestly don’t think I am going to be ending my life sane (define sanity- you have 10 seconds! GO!). Even as I speak, I know it’s only 1 step to the left and I can just Stop Caring about everything. I could just stop feeling and become, basically, psychopathic. That’s a scary feeling to have.

And I am seriously depressed. Always have been, but it a LOT worse since I hurt my back, and then Rudy got so sick. I take the MAXIMUM daily dosage of the antidepressant Wellbutrin (buprion), and the MAXIMUM daily dosage of the antidepressant Cymbalta. And still I feel myself falling.

It’s come down to my really disliking to leave the apartment. I want to stay in my safe space, my artificial womb. And that’s another difference between I and Rudy- he likes light. Lights on. I tend toward darkness a lot. At night, I like all the lights off but for what light the computer monitor makes, or the tv. But then, Rudy and our oldest child always accuse me of being able to see in the dark. Not true- I just have VERY sensitive eyes at even at my advanced age of 43 (had my birfday back in September).

Anne

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As Much As I Have “Commisioned” Stories…

…one cannot control his or her muse, whatever it may be (my muse is a sated snake, belly full of a fresh living meal of woman). So it is that I must pass on a commisioned story, setting it as #2 on the list of stories to be done. Why? Because my muse struck (and another terrified woman was swallowed whole and digested alive) while I was looking at one of Blackrain!s pictures, specifically this one. It reminded me of a passing thought I must have had, oh, like 13 years ago. Ages, anyway.

 And so, my story is being written, and it will be posted on my site. Then on to story #2 (and there goes another one, her screams muffled by the confines of the snake’s throat)!

Anne

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I Finally Re-discovered The Site That Mentions Me!

Not by name, of course. But they DO mention the girl flesh forum rather extensive, with quotes! See if you see your post  AND they post a paragraph from my EPIC mini novel that i will one day work on again I promise. In general, they think it’s awful that people like these things. But that’s because they are fuckers. In a BAD way.

Anyway, here it is! Click on the “Anyway” back there, btw.

Anne

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